Friday, November 9, 2007

27 weeks

I know that it has been a while - life has been a bit crazy but all seems to be calming down now that report cards are done. Also those of you who have asked for pictures I am having a bit of trouble downloading - so I will do that soon as well - as soon as I ask Bill what to do.
You know it is so odd - when you talk to most mothers they will tell you all about their labor (good or bad) and all of the "war wounds" that accompanied their labor (usually very scary). I know that labor must be uncomfortable ... well simply that it is called labor and not something more pleasant but when most women start in on their stories - and I know that it was a great accomplishment in their lives ... well it gets me very nervous about what I might go through in the next 13 weeks.
You don't often hear all of the fears they had before the labor began. What is it going to feel like for me? How long will it last for me? Is the baby going to be born with 10 fingers and 10 toes and all working parts? I know the ultra sound showed 2 legs and 2 arms - but what about the 8 limbed girl in India - I bet her parents were a bit shocked. Then you look around at other kids - and I see a lot daily - and you wonder will my child have autism? aspbergers (sp?)? or any other learning disability? I know people say don't think about it - and I am not worrying about it I am just wondering about it. What kind of parents will Mike and I be? I think I will be a good mom but I haven't done it yet so I have no idea what kind of mom I will be. Plus she is not the most active baby - I get a few good swift kicks but not constant movement - is this okay? Does this mean that she will be a mellow child? Also how can I ensure that I raise a kind, compassionate, good natured and hard working child? When do I learn how to do that? Well I will work on that continuously... the truth is I don't even know about feeding schedules and sleeping schedules and I just read an article that said that as a new mom every time the baby latches on to feed it hurts so much you cry.... what have I gotten myself in to? Don't get me wrong I am so happy to be pregnant and so happy that this pregnancy has been so easy I am just wondering how my life is going to change in 13 weeks...
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