12 weeks

I am 12 weeks today and joy oh joys our changes of miscarriage have dropped considerably well they had dropped when we heard the strong heartbeat but now.... all is well. My next appointment is in a week and a half and I am nervous because they will start the testing - testing for abnormalities for problems for defects... that is a bit nerve racking for the first 3 months you worry about everything you do and eat and now I am worry about the chance of a problem. Our bodies have a way of expelling things when there are serious problems so I probably would have miscarried had there been something really seriously wrong so all I could do is hope and pray. Who knew that pregnancy would bring so many worries with it. I just read that at 12 weeks most people should be wearing their normal clothes although they may be a bit tight ... well I have given up on my "normal" clothes - they are really tight and I have actually started buying 1st trimester clothes.. they come with nice little buttons that you can tighten or loosen as needed and yes the joys of elastic... who'da thunk I love elastic! Okay i am off to clean ... somehow the easiest thing not to do is clean.

10 weeks and 2 days

I am 10 weeks and 2 days I no longer am carrying an embryo but officially have a fetus in me - sounds a bit freakish. I am feeling fine the afternoon sickness seems to be vanishing the bbs are less sore and I am having problems buttoning my pants so I am assuming that all is going well inside of me. The thought of choosing and paying for daycare is a bit of an obsession right now. No I haven't started looking for places yet it is the rumors I hear $1300 a month! A month! I can barely scrape an extra $500 a month to put in savings.... how am I going to manage day care costs? Wait we - how are we going to manage day care costs - I guess that I have been so independent all theses years I forget about dear husband and his half/help of all things. I am still a bit worried there is sooooo much to do before this house is ready for a baby and the truth is this is not the house for a toddler so we will ultimately have to move as well... a whole new life for all of us.

Knitting for the baby (the fun begins)

About 2 years ago I started to knit a baby blanket for a friend but because of a terrible error on my part - making the unwise decision to double the yarn - the blanket ended up costing me about $80 so needless to say I kept it for me - and well I finally finished it. (pattern in stitch n'bitch)
And since I was in the baby spirit I also knitted a baby bolero...... (from Mason Dixon Knitting)

The first ultrasound

The most amazing thing happened - on Tuesday July 3 I saw my baby and heard the heartbeat for the first time. The baby is head down and actually wiggled it's head causing the nurse to call it a bit fiesty as it is so small, the size of a grape. The darker white line going through the middle is the arm. The heartbeat sounded like a choochoo train and was very fast and strong. I am absolutely in love already. To hear the heartbeat and see the ultrasound click here ultrasound

well nothing new yet

what am i doing up on a sunady morning at 6:21... this is actually late I've been up for hours, and hours.... I nap all day and am up all night... so I am 8 weeks and 2 days the little bean has arms and legs that are starting to bend.... this is all so amazing and crazy and exciting. I am still anxious about Tuesdays appointment I am hoping that we not only see it but that it is doing sommersaults - it is by the way the size of a raspberry with arms and legs.